Procrastination...

It seems as if there is something that I am the queen of.... procrastinating.
I seem to work better under pressure. I have a unit due tomorrow in Geometry.
Yet, I decide to write on the blog that I love so, so much.

I was talking with a friend last night and she "suggested" to me that when I am upset about something, that I write a letter. She used the example of how she writes her mate an uplifting letter when she is not feeling that uplifted by him at that moment.

Since I am full of procrastination, and hesitation, and wishing for inebriation, I think I will write myself a letter.

Dear Mel,

Please don't be so hard on yourself. You are OK.
Start praying harder for a balance. And remember, God knows what is in your heart.
He knows that you need help. And He loves you more than you know or understand. It will be OK. One day this will all be over. It will be a distant blur, kinda like when the kids were little and you had two of 'em in diapers and felt like a milk cow. And you will look back on all this with fond memories. And it will be nice to be able to tell the kids how you finished school, it only took 15 years, but you made it.

I love you,
Me

Wait. Now that I read this, it does exactly what it is NOT supposed to do. It throws subliminal messages at the recipient. It hints at anger, and agression and dissatisfaction. Oh, well. I tried.