Mommy Guilt.

Mothers feel guilty for everything.

Its True!

I have asked around, and it seems as though it is not just me.

I am guilty for the following:
1. I let the kids stay up too late.
2. The toilets where they pee are not clean enough.
3. The clothes they wear are not folded to perfection in their dresser drawers.
4. I don't have fresh baked cookies every day.
5. I play on the internet.
6. Lunchboxes don't match backpacks.
7. Sometimes I yell.
8. I am not skinny.
9. I need to play barbies.
10. I need to play matchbox cars.

See what I mean? Mother guilt sucks.

Imagine my self destruction that started last night when we found a song on the Taylor Swift CD called "The Best Day" - My little kids proclaim that every day is "The Best Day of MY LIFE" everytime they get a happy meal, I bake brownies, I give extra kisses, or a double episode of Spongebob comes on.

Here is the lyrics to the song. I encourage you to google it, watch the video on CMT, listen to the song.

I’m 5 years old
It’s getting cold out
Got my big coat on
I hear your laugh
And look up at smilin at you
I run and run

Past the pumpkin patch and the tractor rides
Look now, the sky is gold
I hug your legs and fall asleep
On the way home
I don’t know why all the trees change in the fall oh oh
But I know you’re not scared of anything at all oh oh
Don’t know if Snow White’s house is near or far away
But I know I had the best day with you today

I’m 13 now and don’t know how my friends could be so mean
I come home crying and you hold me tight
And grab the keys
And we drive and drive until we found a town far enough away
And we talk and window shop til I forgotten
All their names

I don’t know who I’m gonna talk to now at school uh uh
But I know I’m laughin in the car ride home with you uh uh
Don’t know how long it’s gonna take to feel okay
but I know I had the best day
With you, today

I have an excellent father
His strength is making me stronger
God smiles on my little brother
Inside and out he’s better than nothin

I grew up in a pretty house
And I had space to run
And I had .. The Best Days with you

There is a video I found
From back when I was three
You set up a paint set in the kitchen
And you’re talkin’ to me
It’s the age of princesses and pirate ships
And the seven dwarfs
My Daddy’s smart and you’re the prettiest lady in the whole wide world

Now I know why the all the trees change in the fall oh oh
I know you were on my side even when I was wrong
And I love you for giving me your eyes
Staying back and watching me shine

And I didn’t know if you knew
So I’m takin’ this chance to say
I had the best day
With you, today


It makes my insides turn inside out, I have to vomit, I spontaneously cry and convulse. I am so stupid that I downloaded it and have listened to it ALL DAY. I want to go get my babies from those schools and go play barbies and cars, bake brownies and lock myself in the house for a week.