Friday, October 1, 2010

Catch Up.

So, with my first week of being unemployed under my belt, I am happy to say I am happy to be here. At home. On a Friday. With a sink full of sudsy water, the washer going, and still in my pajama bottoms. While I go to school every day BUT Friday, I have both Monday and Wednesday mornings at home. I still ended up going to the old job three days this week so the new secretary can figure things out... but it is safe to say after today, I won't be back there anymore.

I thought that this housework - catch up thing would be much faster. I was still feeling a little slacky on Wednesday, but then it hit me - I am trying to un-do what I have not been able to do in the past two years. So, I have cleaned out closets, did summer/winter change over for both Emma and Tripper, and worked my way through a mountain of laundry. I am happy to report that the mountain is now a big hill. :) Progress, people. I am making progress.

Today was a sad day for me -well, this morning more than anything. I went and cleaned out my pew at church. I took our toys/books/candy wrappers out. I was angry that someone that has no idea about my loving God was allowing me to not be with my Christian family. I also know that I am on a spiritual downslide. I spend my time at church being hateful, bitter, and pointing the finger at a man who is lacking human compassion and the Christian spirit. The man is nothing but a used car salesman. A bad one, at that. A judgemental, egotistical.... well, now you just got a taste of what my Sunday morning/evening worship time is like in my head. So I am ready to move on.

What is in store for me? Well, I am going to do more laundry. I am going to spend time with my children. I am going to finish school and study. I am going to go on a field trip with Tripper next week. This week, I baked cupcakes for Emma's birthday. I attended a parent conference for another kid. I took one child money for after school food.

And I was happy to do it.

1 comment:

  1. And now some time for pictures, making memories...one step at a time, Mel, one step at a time...you know where you're going!!!!

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