Where were you?

Many years ago, I remember looking at the moon at night and thinking about the one person that was made for me. I wondered what he was doing. I just knew he was out there.

About a year later, I found Dave.

I knew that one day, I would have lots of kids.
Before Eli was born, I used to try to picture what he would look like.... blonde hair? brown hair? blue eyes? brown eyes? I imagined how this child would change my life - he would make me a mother. So, in February of 1996, I got my baby boy with little blonde hair and bright blue eyes. He did change my life.

For seven whole years, Eli was an only child. I used to sit and daydream about the kids I would have in the future. I knew they were "there" - I used to talk about how I loved them already. I pictured a girl with curly brown hair and big brown eyes. I pictured another little tow headed boy with big blue eyes just like Dave and Eli.

When I had the little kids, I didn't exactly get what I pictured. I got a little girl with straight blonde hair and big hazel eyes and then I got a little boy with blonde hair and brown eyes.

That was OK by me. :)

It seemed that all along, I knew that they were out there - all four of these people that I love so much, more than anything else in the whole world.

I told Dave about two years ago that I did not feel "done." I still needed to be a momma. Who would have known that it was so close.

Now, I am able to take care of two precious girls. It is amazing. Every day is like an adventure... you know, that kind of adventure when children are small and they learn and say new things all the time? This is the kind of adventure we are all living together.

Now, I have five children. It is such a blessing to me to have these girls. They are gifts to me.
When I learned their birthdates, I wondered, "What were they doing in 1997? I had a one year old son at that time." And I wondered, "What were they doing in 2000? Eli was four years old then."

The girls are teaching me so much. I am learning about love all over again, I am learning about letting go, taking and sharing. Because of them, I am a stronger person. I am thankful they are in our family.